Featured Places: St. Petersburg, Moscow, Kursk and more
In some places, I spent most of my childhood. Their streets, parks, riverbanks are stored in my memory like photographs in an album.
By some coincidence, these places (even being far from each other) “encircle” my native town – Kursk.
Such “limits” of attachment to one city, for someone, may seem normal, traditional, though I feel it sometimes like being in a sort of “vortex” that does not give a chance to escape even if you commit many efforts.
My unwilling belonging to a certain place one day became depressive. It caused many episodes of emotional complications until I find a solution to cope with it and transform it for good. The limits gave me the push to become more inventive in finding ways and resources for learning, self-improvement and distance education. I reappraised many things about my surroundings and, I found my true values. I started to perceive my “homeland vortex” as a trial. I understood that it gives me the resource which I did not value before – time. The time needed to gain strength and experience before committing a new step. The “dots” swirling in and around the vortex were perceived not the geographical names and places anymore.
They made a “constellation”.
Today the constellation symbolises people and personal revelations, a newly discovered (illusionary) “harmony”.
They are the landmarks that make my past and present.
I have learned to respect and love this. And I believe, one day to allow myself to leave this place. I wish to make the way other discoveries, places, people, knowings, impressions. But without a doubt, Vortex Constellation takes a special place in my heart.